life as i know it

I live in a [DREAM] world. i [THINK] the first but finish [LAST].ive seen [ALOT]. Been through [ENOUGH]. if theres more [DRAMA] headed my way [KILL] me now. i cant stand [people]. i [GIVE] my all and get [NOTHING] in return. i [FALL] hard. my life is [HELL] most days. i try to [HIDE] it but turn to the [WRONG] alternatives. when i [REST] my head at [NIGHT] i feel [EMPTY]. thats pretty [MUCH] the bad [PARTS] of my [DEATH]. the word [LOVE] means different things to[DIFFERENT] people. to me its a [WORD] that makes friendships/relationships [COMPLICATED]. life has [OBSTACLES] and if you [CANT] over come them theres [ALWAYS] the option to [KILL] yourself -_-. i seem really [DEPRESSED]/suicidal but im not ive [JUST] been hit with the reality of [LIFE].